Self delusion is my optimism

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

How much would you pay to try and recover a watch that probably costs less than 200 dollars?

From: Raymond Kwek Kok Xuan (06S20)
Sun 25 Feb 2007 8:56 pm
Also to: Hoong Hui Ling Michelle, Jillian Giam Li Er, Lim Yu Rong, Luo Jing Jing, Rishibha Sanam Chadha, Shauna Sim Jia Ning, Sivashangari D/o K Kiruppali, Tan Hwee Ling Vivian, Tan Ser Chee, Tan Yan Bin, Umairah Bte Ali Bafana, Aidross B Ramli, Chan Hui Yuan, Chia Liyi Nicholas, Gan Guoxiong Dominic, Hilmi B Abdul Rahman, Jiten Khemlani S/o Suresh, Kow Yong Hao Jonathan, Lim Xu Zhi Benjamin, Loo Fei Brandon Maurice, Muhammad Asnurizan B Ahmad S, Ng Jing Teng Larry, Yap Shi Rui Status
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Lost Watch Urgent

Blue G-shock watch
near pull-up bar left on brown chair
near side gate
during 10.30 AM to 11 AM
on Friday (23/2/2007)

Please message me if found
$1000 to whoever has the watch in the end (No questions asked)

Thursday, February 22, 2007


"This is the reason why Maplestory shouldn't be played..."

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Line of the day by my P.e teacher,on some advice after watching us play rugby, "Guys,guys,you're caressing your opponents,you caressing them will only get them excited and make them run faster."

And today,my classmates sat together during our break and had a small talk session,which made me realise that there was probably one thing common among most guys.We all used to love Power Rangers!
The common topic came when a power ranger beeping tone went off at the next table,and then everyone went,"Power Ranger!!!"

And before i knew it,we were all reminiscing about the old days,when we played with power ranger masks,belts,the white ranger sword,and for me,i recalled the old days when i argued with my cousins over who got to be the red or white ranger.(In case you don't watch power rangers in the past,red and white ranger are the coolest ones among the whole bunch!)
The power rangers saga may have faded out today,but somehow,it's embedded in all of us.
Brandon apparently still has his power ranger gun or something stashed away somewhere,and Johnaton can recall all of the animals each ranger represents.Cool eh!

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I can still remember,when you moved in next door
I bought you some chocolates,from the corner candy store
Then it started raining,you started running home
That was the first time,i sang this song for you

Rain rain go away,come again another day
Rain rain go away,bring my love a sunny day

When i went to the army,you said you'd wait for me
But you sent me a letter,asking me to set you free
Then it started raining,tears started falling down
That was the last time,i sang this song for you

Rain rain go away,come again another day
Rain rain go away,bring my love a sunny day...

a song my friend used to sing in class,and this very song i fell in love with and remembered till today

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Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Behind this window of mine,i never really realised it was frosted or covered with dust,for i thought i saw clearly everything behind it.How naive i am,or should i say was,to not realise that humans,seek to hide behind a veil and of cause potray a picture perfect of themselves.What disgusts me was probably the fact that when probed about an act committed,the person denies flatly,which makes it all hypocritical.

Why bother doing it in the first place,when you're afraid of people knowing it?Maybe it's just your luck,that the other person loves to boast.Anyway all i can say is that i'm probably gutted,and disgusted.Argh,anyway thats besides the point,as a friend i always thought better of you.

And hey it's Valentine's Day yet again tomorrow!Time truly flies,the last one seemed near enough for me to run through my mind flawlessly,every single and intricate detail,but i shan't go into that.And yes!I have a date!While most of you guys and girls are probably walking around aimlessly deciding on where to go,and probably running through a make-shift conversation in your heads to clear any awkwardness,i'd be sitting in the lecture hall with future prospects running through mine.

University talks tomorrow,and a cca thats even more compulsory for me since i've missed today's training.Haven't exactly been well this past few days,and it's probably due to Ben the carrier of the flu virus.Life's looking down once again,i swear my heart stopped in it's tracks for a moment or two when i saw ben's planner.We have like a common test coming up right after Chinese New year,and that just dampens all the festive mood.Imagine mugging while visiting, and only stopping once in a while to stick out both hands and saying " Thank you auntie/uncle!Xin Nian Kuai Le!" (Topped with an extra wide smile of cause)

And i have to probably start memorising all the different variations of well wishes,stuff like "Long Ma Jin Shen" (eh i think it means energy of a dragon and horse or something like that) and probably Happy Cny in canto and hokkien,etc just to please the different people.And i guess the usual stuff is probably gonna come,comments like,"Wah you sure have grown,the last time i saw you.. ... ... .. Don't you remember me?When you were a kid... ... ... .."And meeting all the long distance relatives is gonna be awkward,cause to start if off i don't even know how to address them.Well looking at the bright side,i can take comfort at the fact that i'm receiving some form of income for my pockets that are decorated with holes aplenty.An everlast jacket and two Topshop shirts have probably emptied my account,and up till now i still can't bring myself to check the balance in it.Like they say,'Sometimes,ignorance is a bliss'. =)

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Saturday, February 10, 2007

GOD!I'M ON THE VERGE OF PULLING MY HAIR OUT,AND I'M EVEN CLOSER TO THROWING THE FREAKING DVD PLAYER OUT OF THE WINDOW!!But because it's considered killer litter,and my dad's gonna kill me cause it's his beloved player,i restrain myself.

My brother,is once again watching DOA (Dead or Alive) for the fifth time in like 3 weeks,and that irks me alot.It bothers me alot,cause this is some retarded show that has no meaning behind it,nor does it come with a plot.

Right now i'm desperately trying out every single password that comes to mind,but i just can't get the right one to log in to my mindef account to defer my NS.It appears that somehow,despite my previous attempts in registering,it was pretty much futile.And failure in registering by next month,or April would get me a three year jail term.And the idea of sitting in a stupid cell with a bald head,definitely ain't my cup of tea.

Tonight i got bored and decided to look back at friendster testimonials,which kind of brought back many memories,the good and the lousy ones.Well,when you look back in time,and along that road which was never lonely,you kinda feel blessed.However,whilst i savour this bliss,there're also the other side of the coin.While some friends i keep till today,others wandered away and there's this pang of regret and sadness i'm feeling.But i shan't bother you peeps with emo stuff for now,ha!

But looking at the testimonials kinda made me feel,urm,i don't really know what i'm feeling.I'm kinda laughing at it all,and at the same time asking myself if i was really that crappy.

Some of them go like this,


shi rui ar~ another loud speaker like
wenqi.. but wenqi louder... =X hmmm..
visited ur blog a few times.. u always
sound so sad in it.. totally diff from
the u in real life.. u ar.. in class...
very noisy one loh.. the onli time when
u r quiet is when u slping in class
de.. heez.. but anyway, muz learn to
take things easy lah.. thou its easier
said than done.. since we all live onli
once.. juz live life to the fullest ba!
oh yah.. one more thing.. u ar.. crazy
fan of boa ar.. see her photo onli u go
crazy.. i think u see her in real life
u will faint ar.
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rui arh rui! this bastard arhs...always
everyday kpkb act lan lan ones..=XxX k
larh..he's nice, but sometimes damn
blardy kiam pa lor..see liao machiam
wanna slap his face sia =X. he hor..lyk
ter irritate any bastard called wei
qin, den once almost kanna hit hole
puncher by wei qin
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hmm...this guy likes to insult
pple..lots of comments
derh..looks?..serious, overall not bad
lorh...very funny..always see him with
tt weeen qiiiiii...lol..another one
with lots of comments derh..ok..i stop
here arh...byebye..take care
horh...and don insult pple lerh...


..there're loads more,but it kinda makes me wonder if i was really that bad last time haha!Well i do remember clearly that day i survived the hole-puncher throwing,and i kinda felt bad.Cause it nearly hit my other classmate cause the throw went off target.But that's a different story altogether..

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Thursday, February 08, 2007

Good luck to all the peeps getting back the results tomorrow!!

Wednesday, February 07, 2007



You people gotta watch this!!Super funny..

Went to the parliament house for some learning journey programme,and boy was i amazed there.The first thing meeting us were stringent checks to make sure we weren't carrying any bombs or stuff like that in (well the place doesn't look cheap,so i guess it was essential though we were students),and then we were greeted by our tour guide of the day.Well Mr erm...i can't really remember his name,i'll just call him Mr kumar,(since he looks like a kumar to me) brought us around explaining how parliament sessions went,and the different MPs involved.

And i couldn't help but marvel at the people who worked there,especially at translators who could translate english,mandarin,tamil,and of cause malay at the snap of a finger.And often even faster then you could finish your sentence.Along with people that wrote at the speed of 120 words at a minute.Cool eh!

Well it was around then that i realised,and see the big picture."A" level certs,and diplomas are nothing,and all these while i kept having ideas of taking the easy way out,to drop out to a poly.And the other was to just scrap into a university.It finally dawned on me,that neither of them,would bring me to where i wanted.I want to be successful,to command a good salary,and to be on par with people working in the parliament.That is my dream.

Perhaps it sounds too practical,and over-realistic.Just as it occured to me,i've changed alot in my mindset.In the past,i used to say i would never slog my guts out,working for the thing that supposedly "makes the world go round".I would say i wanna do something i like,rather than something that i detest but pays well.Fast forward a couple of years,and all that has changed.People love to say "Live your life for yourself,for its yours".But thats pure bullshit in my eyes now,that phrase i once worshipped.That fella who said that once upon a time,probably forgot,that our lives revolve around so many people.And that we are who we are today,because of what we have taken from others.For in our lives,we never do walk alone.

I choose money over myself,for a good reason.It's not so much of driving a car,and enjoying luxuries.There's one thing that i would do above all,and that is being able to provide for my parents,and perhaps even help provide for my lil bro.The worst thing in life,is not being able to repay your parents and having to live off them,and that is definitely something i'll never want to be doing.I've realised the pain of being broke,walking around with less than a dollar in my pocket.Not too long ago,i was walking around,and i felt hungry,but all i could do was stare at that pretzel at aunty anne's.Yea you get the point..

And now i'm just wondering,how life's gonna be in the future.Things like getting a driving license,finding the right girl,not being a gay when i come out of NS,and then the daunting prospect of finding a job,and surviving all the pressures it carries along.It all fazes me,and it never fails not to,maybe that's life.

Monday, February 05, 2007

I scanned through again the words you wrote me,my mind blank and eyes fixed into space.
My throat tightens,and this feeling just washes over,perhaps its sadness,or maybe disappointment.I have no idea,for i just couldn't pull myself together to comprehend and accept what you said tonight.It made sense to be fair,but at the same time it's tantamount to the feeling of being slammed against the wall.

I waited all night,and with waiting came anticipation,and in the midst of anticipation often lurks disappointment.I sat,and wondered if you would come just as you said,and finally you came.Like a kid's joy and glee when the ice-cream man's bell rung,euphoria rushed over me.

But tonight,your words though soft,with best intentions slayed me truly....broken from before,it's hard...so hard..


"Sia la that Fu Lu Shou thing looks like gundam.." lamented dominic..

Today's events were mainly mediocre i guess,accompanied shang to get his grandma's birthday present and walked around the ever so familiar Tampines mall.According to shang,he'd been thinking of getting his grandma a birthday present since last year when i questioned him bout sincerity.Well,and shang being a MORON proceeded to add on her birthday's today and i'm going over to her place today.Sheesh,some things never do change!

Sunday, February 04, 2007

LIONS ATE TOM YUM FOR DINNER!

I'm elated we won,probably cause it was more of national pride at stake this time.Though we played like crap,but oh well..who cares bout the process when results are good.And the moral of the story? You can walk away,and be a sore ass,but a loser can't walk away from being a loser.

P.s This victory would be sweeter if tomorrow is declared a national holiday.My Gp work isn't exactly ready to be handed in yet.


Time itself is elusive and it's the only thing that's fair in the world,for each only has 24 hours..

Two nice quotes i saw,

"Plan today for tomorrow,or tomorrow will be yesterday"

"The bad news is that time flies,and the good news is that you're the pilot"

Friday, February 02, 2007


You make me wanna fall in love again...
Cause looking into that pair of eyes that sparkle,it makes me forget all my fears.
Your ever present smile,a happiness thats been eluding me.
The shackles holding me back,are being melted one at a time.
Girl,could you be the one?Or would you be just one of them...another heartbreak..